CONTROL EMOTIONS

Control Your Emotions..or they will control you.

                                        
May 23, 2010

I think I've put my brain on over load. Sometimes I tend to think more is better..to get to that finish line. It seems to be part of our human nature.
Gods word teaches us that less is more.
Mathew 20:16 So the last shall be first and the first last: for many be called, but few chosen. K.J.V.

I really enjoy the down to earth, and personal experiences of evangelist; Joyce Meyers. She tells it like it is. Most of us can relate to many of her life's experiences. There are days when I cram too much of her messages in my brain. It gets jumbled and I am not able to focus on one thing and learn a simple lesson. I end up doing the very thing she says NOT to do.

I have so much to be thankful for. God has blessed me and has done miracles in my life. It seems the more I learn as I climb that mountain...the harder the journey becomes. There are times I don't have a clue where I'm at in my journey, or what I am feeling. I only know when it doesn't feel good.

I've heard Joyce talk about not living in your emotions. She has also spoke about keeping your mouth shut instead of saying words that hurt. These past two weeks, instead of speaking as the new person I am becoming..on the outside, the old me inside has been spewing out every hurt, and negative feeling. Like a pressure cooker with no thought of the results. This is not from God. It will not get me happiness. Today at church the pastor said couples get into heated disagreements. Satan wants to break up relationships. He said we need to recognize when this is happening, and stop and realize where this is coming from.
God wants us to have healthy bodies, however more importantly is to have a healthy soul on the inside. Your soul is your mind, your will, and your emotions.


I take responsibility and own up to my mistakes. I ask for forgiveness and I am truly sorry. My mouth has been an endless stream of thoughts and feelings coming out in every wrong word.

In the early hours of the morning I woke up hearing myself as James did last night...right before he hung up on me. It was like God pressed the replay button so I could hear myself. It wasn't pretty. I knew I was wrong.

When you see someone acting in a way that is not right...just know...they are preparing to be taught a lesson. Even though I seek to be taught and know Gods will, through reading and listening, the way I really learn is to experience the pain of my mistake.

My challenge from this day on is to mind my own business, not judge others...that's between them and God. Also to keep my big fat mouth shut when I am experiencing feelings I don't understand. God is always there for me to talk to and I trust he wants only the best for me.

The best complement someone gives you, is to mirror your behavior. You've seen children copy what their parents do. I want to see good in others...not the reflection of my uncontrolled feelings and emotions.

Learning...as I go.  J.C.M.

HERE...For A SEASON...

We are only here for a season.

Is there something in your life that means a lot to you?

This morning as I rested..in the bathroom, multi-tasking as usual..
I rummaged through a basket of what-to-do-with-things.
I have recently cleaned out some drawers in attempt to do "spring cleaning."
Deciding to move on..to other projects awaiting, I raised my arm toward the sink and my Memphis Tennessee coffee cup I'd purchased at Starbucks at the airport..went crashing into the sink. It was full with coffee. It splashed all over the walls and floor. Did the cup break? My first thought was; "I'd be disappointed if it didn't..because it was suppose to."  Yes, it WAS broken.
I felt a wave of  sadness as it was my little remembrance of my trip to my daughters new house in Tennessee. The trip was taken in November of last year. My Memphis cup had been welcoming me every morning since with fresh coffee.

Now..just like my lost black bead pendant I'd worn for decades..it was gone. Uncle who has since passed gave me the Spanish onyx bead encircled in a tiny little 14kt gold band. He had purchased it in New York City where he lived. I had cherished it. I wore it so much it had become almost a part of me.
With this new loss came a message. Do NOT put too much importance on "things"..and do not covet the people in your life. They are all just temporary.

I am in the process of cleaning out and disposing of "stuff". I've saved "things" over the past 50 years that have become more of a burden than a pleasure.
As I move forward in the last half of my life's journey, I am realizing I am in this world but not of it. We are all just passing through..and are here on a mission. Here to fulfill our purpose. I think this "cleaning out" and "letting-go-of-period"  is part of life's cycle.

I don't think of it as giving up on me, or of not continuing to strive to be more healthy, and learn more.  I just have a new perspective..a new outlook on living.
The "things" held dear, and kept selfishly close, are just temporary for us to enjoy for a time. They are all God given. Like people, they can be taken away at any time. I think God wants me to put more importance on caring and loving people. My family first, and friends second. We only have each other for less time than we know. Life is but a vapor.

John 13: 34 Jesus said; "A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another."
If everyone would function in love..true agape love, the world would indeed become a paradise of sort..and Gods glory would truly shine. Agape love is an all encompassing, non-judging love..the kind that God has for us. The kind of love He expects us to have for each other.

As I examine self I ask;  "Have I withheld caring, concern, and love from my family? My friends? Have I showered some, and neglected others, who may just need to hear a kind word?"  I ask God to lead me..to show me what needs my attention.
Have you tried to connect with family many times, and they have ignored or rejected your attempts? Pray for them. Know that they are a work in progress..unfinished. God was also rejected by the people He loves.

LEARNING...as I go.  J.C.M.

Beware Of Unusual Circumstances

Beware Of Unusual Circumstances

Whenever something unusual happens in daily life, these are the signs that God is up to something. We must have a heightened sense of awareness of what God may want to do in these situations.

(1 Cor. 12: 7-9)


Desire + Action + Failure = Discouragement

or...

"God has other plans."

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April 20, 2010

My big plan today was mowing the lawn, and filling the bird feeders.

My inner feeling yesterday was that mama cat was going to give birth.

In the early morning when I fed her and Fluffy she was literally dragging the ground from the weight of the babies on each of her sides.

I got a late start yesterday to the store..so after shopping at 5 stores and getting gasoline in the car, it was dark when I got home.

I visualized Fluffy on the back porch..and my gosh...there she was; saying "Houston...we got a problem".

After unloading the the car, my mind went south and I put some food out for her. She acted like she was starving...so I closed the door and said "goodnight".

This morning after replanting a couple of houseplants, I again took food out for the cats. I hollered; "here kitty kitty kitty". Mama cat and Fluffy came running from the thicket of the field...and not the pole barn.

I petted mama cat, and could see she'd given birth. She was acting like nothing had happened. Not being familiar..at all..with cats or dogs...I was clueless. Where were her kittens?

I looked all over the pole barn...and found nothing. I asked them to show me the babies, and Fluffy led me to the thicket which had her attention more than mama cat. I followed her as far as I could but she went in deep where I could not go. After much time of searching, I stopped. There comes a time...when you just gotta stop.

Now...to mow the lawn...just like riding a bike. I got on the mower, and the motor would not turn over. Like many times before I prayed for this temperamental piece of equipment. It started up. I backed it out of the pole barn, and realized I needed to move a big bunch of boards before I could begin. I turned the key off. James had placed walking boards to the back porch this past winter...gosh..3 boards wide. After carrying 33 boards...some 12 feet long to the lean-to...I rested a bit.

I decided to fill the big can I keep in the house with the birdseed from the pole barn. I have avoided going in the pole barn since James left for Arkansas. Being in there..gave me the feeling of being in a tomb where someone had died. (I believe James spent more time there than he did in the house all winter...tinkering...doing...whatever?) After filling the bird feeders I proceeded to pick up all of the fallen pine cones and whatever looked like it would damage the mower. I was ready to begin mowing.

I got on the mower, lifted the deck, turned on the gasoline, pumped the choke, turned on the key...NOTHING...dead...no noise. I don't pretend to be a mechanic...but I do know about the little tricks...check the gasoline...FULL. Check the oil...OK (and new). Run a wire brush over battery terminals...move the terminals with a gentle tap of a hammer. Jiggle all the wires. OK...now to try it again. NOTHING. Already in neutral I turn the wheels and push it into the pole barn. Close the door...lock it.

Why? Only God knows. His plan is for our good and our safety. We know not why things happen or they don't but we need to TRUST that He knows best.

What happened to mama cats babies? Why doesn't she care? Why isn't she with them? Were they born dead? I wonder what they looked like?

Why wasn't I able to mow the lawn?

I did all I could today, but God had other plans. One day I'll know why? I will trust that He knows best. Tomorrow is a new day.

LEARNING...as I go.  J.C.M.

THERE YOU'D BE

THERE YOU'D BE

If I could look inside your mind

I wonder what I'd see.

Would I need a magic code

or would I need a key?

Would I see a special place

for happy times gone by?

a place to rest and meditate

no thoughts; to wonder "why"?

Turn a knob and open

a place to keep the dead

People who have passed from life

where nothing more is said.

Within this house of rooms

would I find one filled with dreams?

Victories of goals you've met

a plan for roads unseen.

Would I find a place for love

Who lives behind that door?

You? with God the banker?

do you give less..when he says more?

If I could start a new room

a place where I could be

You'd find; God, and love, and just the best

of each room..there..you'd be.

Clean out that room of hurt and fear

the doubts from the past

Evict the jailer of your soul

Bring out yourself at last !

Written for James by: Judith Morcom     April 23, 2010

LEARNING...as I go. J.C.M.

Old Things Become New.

REBIRTH

Beauty again...after a long dead winter.

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He Makes All Things New

Another New Year begins.
I ask myself; What did I learn from the hard times, and rewards of this past
 year?
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Because He Loves Me

Driving down this familiar road alone to a place

called Home.

Tears streaming down my face..I've made this trip

before.

Sun...beautiful glorious warming sun.

Forever months..of hearts in conflict.

Pure white snow melting..melting.

The carcasses of dead animals and carefully hidden

secrets revealed.

Some will return to the earth.

Others will hide their slow death behind dark

glasses.

The Apple Tree in the lane looks dead. Old and

greyish, dry, with

it's branches thin and taunt like the elderly end of a

life.

It's been a long, very cold winter..and it's life
lays dormant..ready to begin again.

I AM

because HE says I AM.

We will start again together..and I will

listen closely this time..as I travel on this journey

around this

mountain again.

I reach out..

and clasp His hand

that is extended..

always for me..

and I feel the scars because..

He loves me.

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(Written by; Judith C. Morcom   March.7,2010)

LEARNING..as I go. J.C.M.

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“Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth. The former heaven and the former earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. I also saw the holy city, a new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Behold, God's dwelling is with the human race. He will dwell with them and they will be his people and God himself will always be with them (as their God). He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there shall be no more death or mourning, wailing or pain, (for) the old order has passed away." The one who sat on the throne said, "Behold, I make all things new." Then he said, "Write these words down, for they are trustworthy and true.” He said to me, "They are accomplished. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. To the thirsty I will give a gift from the spring of life-giving water.” (Revelation 21:1-5)